I love this video! Right now, however, this song really stretches my faith. From the first verse, my heart is screaming, "That's exactly how I feel!" They wrote these beautiful words that we have all related to at one point in our lives; right now is that point for me:
"Waiting for the Sunrise.
Waiting for the Day.
Waiting for a sign that I'm where you want me to be."
There are so many things I want to do with my life! I want to be a Speech Therapist and work with the deaf community.
I want to own a community garden with a cute market (I've already got a name picked out for my farm :) ).
I want to be a chef with my own restaurant.
More recently I've discovered that I want to live my life through music. I love to dance, use sign language to express music, sing (though not well in my eyes, others disagree), play piano, flute, learn guitar, and I want to learn to play the violin someday.
Which one of these things is where He wants me to be? I'm not too concerned about answering that question right now. I believe that time will answer it for me and I'll end up right where I'm meant to be. My real question revolves around the music part of my life. It's all very new to me to have people tell me that I have a talent in playing music. Ok, maybe that's not true, but it is very new for me to believe them. Music is my passion and it wasn't until I wrote a song, played it in front of friends and family in my home and at my church, and had so many people tell me that God gave me a gift, did I start to believe that maybe I do have some talent. I don't like admitting it though. In fact, I try not to believe it because I'm so afraid that I will come off as conceited. I'm far from it, but I'm terrified that someone will think that I am if I say that I can sing(not that I can). Even more than that, I'm afraid that I will share my music with someone who won't like it. People can be cruel. I'll admit that I struggle with worrying that others don't like me. Confidence is something I definitely lack. However, I think that we all need to embrace the gifts that God has given us with humility, but also with confidence. We were meant to share our gifts in order to reach the hearts of humanity.
My question is: How do we share our gifts, making ourselves vulnerable to the criticism of others, but remain confident?
Well, lets try this again. First, I am blessed to know that you are truly gifted in all of the areas that you mentioned. I believe that you may think that you are waiting, but I would be wrong if I agreed. You are making such a huge impact on all those around you.
ReplyDeleteI feel that confidence in the midst of being vulnerable comes from within. The confidence comes, not from being totally secure in what you are doing, but from being totally sold out to whatever the motive behind the action is. I feel that to be aware that you are a servant of a purpose bigger than yourself is the way to find confidence that is beyond your comprehension.
P.S. I Love You and I am so proud of you for the steps you are taking in your journey! You truly are an example to all of us around you.